Tuesday, August 26, 2008

First day jitters...

I start my first semester at a new college tomorrow.

To follow my entire college career (which has been on and off from 2002 to present) this makes three colleges I've been to, four majors I've attempted to get degrees on, about 13 classes I've begun, three that I've withdrawn from, and one that I 'failed'. (I only failed in the eyes of my current college, which won't accept transfer credits if you get anything less then a C. I scooted by the eyes of the Botany Gods with a D, which was still passing at the time.)

This time, I've got a major that I refuse to budge from-- Broadcasting and Communications.

I also have FULL student aid being provided to me by the college. Apparently, it really pays off to hit age 24 and move out. Suddenly they look at my finances the same way I do and likely think, 'shit, how's she going to pull this off? Quick, give her some money!'. This is amazing and fantastic and a whole slew of other positive words.

And, against the wishes of my mother, I'm taking a full time course load. She thinks I won't be able to handle it, especially since I've only taken 2 classes at a time for the past few semesters, and I'll still be working full-time. I think I'm appropriately motivated to the task, and I feel like I need to strike while the iron is hot.

HOWEVER.

I am so freaking NERVOUS it's insane. I spent my entire evening today making ridiculous preparations (exfoliation, manicure, pedicure, eyebrow wax, facial peel...!) like I'm getting ready for some party where everyone will be judging me based on appearance. Because isn't that what college IS?

I'm not sure why I'm going to such lengths. In the previous years, I would chalk it all up to, essentially, being on the prowl. Sure... I was going to school to learn-- but if that hot guy who sat in front of me ended up liking me, wouldn't that be a bonus?

This year I'm not sure what it is.

It's possible I'm looking for new friends, I guess, but even if I were to find them, I wouldn't know what to do with them, seeing as I'm broke as anything at this point and lack the ability to even purchase a drink if we were to go to a bar.

[edit: 8/29/08]

It's largely pointless, anyway. It seems I can divide community college kids into three categories:

  1. The kids right out of high school. These are easy to spot, usually because they're extremely young and have brand new clothes (since mommy and daddy took them back to school shopping).
  2. The continuing education students (essentially, the "old people"). They are also easy to spot, as they generally never stop talking. They talk to you even if you aren't looking at them, they talk to the teacher as if they've been friends for years, and when all else fails, they talk to themselves.
  3. The others. The others generally detest being in school, and it's visible by their body language. They don't speak if at all possible, and seem to have no personality.

I'm not sure exactly what category I fit into. I'm likely somewhere between "the others" and "continuing ed" students.

Hopefully I'll meet someone interesting.

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