Thursday, October 29, 2009

(New) Job Rant...

(...because things are never just GOOD in my job-life.)

So, I have to admit that the older I'm getting, the more I refuse to be treated a certain way by people in charge.

This is making it very difficult to work for people.

Usually it would just infuriate me that my pharmacy boss would insist on RE-calling phone numbers after I called them (because he didn't believe that I had actually done it) and follow me around while I do cycle counts to 'make sure I'm doing them'. (The real insult in this was that I have worked there for three years now. Can't you trust me to do my job? I've never given you cause to believe that I'm not capable.) But I could deal with it.

Now it's causing me a greater level of anxiety. I've been at my new job (2nd job) at the portrait studio for two weeks now, and the woman who I originally thought was awesome and was going to be a blast to work for, is showing her true colors.

It's nothing huge, yet. Today I was doing a sitting with two parents and a child, and she said quietly (she speaks RIDICULOUSLY quietly, and sometimes I have to ask her to repeat herself 4 times before I figure out what she's saying. Frustrating.) "Get mom and him." Since there were TWO males in the room, I asked her for clarification. She sighed loudly and said in an angry voice, "We've gone OVER this." like I was the worlds biggest idiot. Is it unreasonable to assume she could have meant EITHER male? We never went over ''him' means 'son''.

While there was a lot to learn in this job and I was expected to learn it all in a period of six days, I think I'm doing fairly well. I shot two families today, scheduled appointments, completed orders and rang them out. But with her it's not about what I'm doing well, it's about what I'm NOT doing. I'm not talking to the customers enough, I'm not making loud obnoxious baby noises enough. Ugh. As someone who works best with positive reinforcement, this is no good.

I don't think there's anything I hate more then people following me around and telling me what to do. If I have a problem or need help, I will ask for it. I just don't think she finds me very capable, and it's making what should be an amazing job very stressful. Last night, I had an anxiety attack just at the thought of going in today.

It's discouraging. I was very excited to finally land this job (after wanting it since 2002!) and now I'm disheartened. Am I not cut out for this, or is it just her?

In a way, I'm glad that this is only a seasonal position. I'll gain the experience and use it elsewhere.

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