Thursday, December 31, 2009

New Years Eve

I'm one of those people who gets horribly depressed on New Years Eve. As a teenager, I used to lock myself in my room crying... sometimes contemplating suicide, sometimes burning myself. (I was a little bit of a sicko.)

This year I have promised my therapist I will not dwell on the things that happened or didn't happen within the last year.

As far as I am (immediately) concerned, (if I don't pick things apart too much) I'm healthy, I still have a job, a car, a roof over my head, and a great boyfriend.

Instead, I'm focusing on things that I welcome in the new year.

-Good health. I quit smoking about three weeks ago, through no real "choice" of my own, but I'm going to try to keep at it. When it comes down to it, I had been smoking for a long time (almost 7 years) and while it helps keep my weight down, it's really not good for me. The thing that keeps me going? I'm determined to spoil myself with the money I'm saving. $30 purse? Well... sure! I saved at least $50 this month by not smoking. Why not?
(Also, I joined a gym this month, although as of yet, I'd been too sick to go to it. I fully intend on going often, and hopefully decreasing my weight even more.)

-A better job. I applied for what sounds like an amazing job for me, and now I play the waiting game. It's a bit of a hike, but the money is good and it sounds like I'd operate completely of my own devices, which is ideal. I'm sick of work related drama and assholes I can't trust.

-Less debt. I paid off one credit card (the smallest balance, unfortunately, so it's really not that big of a deal.) and I intend to use ALL of my tax return to pay off at least two other "store" credit cards. After that, I'll have only two credit cards left, and hopefully it will be easier to handle only two payments.

-Less STUFF, but more "better" stuff. I'm cleaning the hell out of my closet/dresser and keeping only my favorite pieces. I'm replacing ratty, too-big or too-small clothing with things that fit, and I fully intend on getting some key wardrobe pieces tailored and mended. Getting rid of the millions of pairs of shoes I don't wear, and uncomfortable socks. Selling books. Getting rid of pointless household things. Less is more.

-Keep the apartment cleaner. Jay & I CANNOT get it together when it comes to this. I clean, he messes it up. He cleans, I mess it up. We really need to get in the habit of picking up after ourselves immediately, because it's getting ridiculous.

-Read more. No doubt the Kindle will help in this regard!

I'd also at least like to get to New York City again this year. It's been too long since my last trip.

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