Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Fake Day.

Today at work was very interesting. It was my jerk bosses 50th birthday, which I guess meant that absolutely every member of the staff lined up to collectively kiss his ass. They decorated with streamers and balloons and posters and tons of "Over The Hill" crap.

I do not UNDERSTAND this about people. If I dislike someone, I dislike you on every freaking day of the year. It doesn't matter. Yet EVERYONE at work besides me sang Happy Birthday, brought presents, signed cards, and were all smiles all day long.

Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not like "Hey, fuck you Mister." or anything like that. I'm not out to wreck his big day-- I just want to be left alone during it. I didn't write anything nasty on the cards, but I also didn't write anything fake-- I just chose not to sign them.

I just don't get how one man can make everyone's lives completely miserable, yet they still choose to kiss up to him on his birthday. I guess I'm more genuine then that.


EDIT: While we're on the topic of birthdays, Jay asked me the other night what I wanted for mine. Honestly, for the first time in my life, I hadn't really realized that it was coming up. It's 2 months away, and I have no idea what I want. I could think of a million things I could get him, but I don't know what I want for me. And then there's things I want for the apartment (a new couch, for one!) but I don't feel right asking for anything expensive, and I also feel that a gift of a couch is sort of... well, impersonal I guess?

I think I'd really like to go on a trip somewhere as my present, but I don't know where or to see what. I'd have to think of something within our price range. I do have some vacation time left, although I don't think he does... I suppose we'll figure something out when the time comes.

Monday, March 23, 2009

Florida, part two

I have now returned from Florida (I've been back for a few days, actually).

I had an amazing time, it was so nice to see Katie after so long. I had fun hanging out with her and her boyfriend, and I loved Disney World! It's impossible to see the whole park in two days, although we did our best, and I was able to ride Tower of Terror, Splash Mountain, Big Thunder Mountain, The Teacups, Small World, & The Haunted Mansion. I also saw the World Showcase (I had cheese and bread for lunch in fake-France), and PhilharMagic (an amazing show that I saw twice, I'd recommend it to anyone!) I wanted to go on Rock n' Rollercoaster, but there was a 2 1/2 hour wait, and I really wanted to catch the fireworks, so we headed there instead. The fireworks are awesome (Tinkerbell is the best part, but I won't elaborate on that for anyone who hasn't already seen the show.)

I managed to make it through all of Disney without getting sunburned (although I DID get sunburned a bit, in VERY strange places where I must have accidentally forgotten to put lotion on, while I was at the pool.), but I did get wounded my second day there. I packed only a pair of flip-flops, thinking that I run around ALL summer in flip-flops, so surely they would be the most comfortable footwear I could find, right? Unfortunately, what I didn't realize was that I must build up invisible callouses during the summer, and to force innocent little winter feet (who are used to being pampered in thick socks and comfy UGG boots all season!) into flip-flops for miles results in blisters :( Luckily, First Aid came to my assistance, and with 2 well-placed band-aids I was good as new.

We were able to get into Garden Grill for dinner (it's this awesome resturant that spins very slowly, so you get a view of different scenery and spin all the way around by the time you're through eating-- also, it's all-you-can-eat, but they just bring you out food and then you tell them which dishes you want more of. Pretty cool, I just wish we were hungrier!) which apparently is near impossible to do without a reservation. Characters come around while you're eating, so we got our pictures with Chip & Dale, Mickey and Pluto.

All in all, it was a very fun time. The park was unfortunately very crowded, and the wait for some rides were very long. I hope to go back at some point during "off-season" when I can do more! There were not enough hours in the day.

But now spring break is over, and I'm back to school. I've got just a little over a month left, and so far it SUCKS! Can't wait to be out of school. Not sure whether or not I'll be able to get financial aid for summer courses yet, but we'll have to see.

All for now :)

I ate at Chick-Fil-A and Steak n' Shake (two resturants we don't have up here! I was definitely in it for the novelty.)

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

greetings from sunny florida!

Well, it's past midnight now, so it isn't sunny-- but it was 88 degrees when I touched down in MCO today, a nice change from the 40 degrees I left!

The plane ride was okay-- it was my first time on a plane, so I was really scared at first. My fear was clearly evident on my face, because no sooner had I entered the terminal then someone who worked there came up to me and asked, "It's not really that bad, is it?" "I've never been on a plane before." I told him quickly, embarrassed that my face had given me away and my suave traveler persona wasn't working. He was pretty nice and advised me that I'd hear some strange noises while flying but not to be scared, and to be careful if I had a drink (apparently the alcohol hits you twice as hard when you're at high altitudes), but that other then that it was all easy and I'd be fine.

I was alright while we were taxiing, but the buildup was so bad that by the time we actually headed UP, I had to slam down the window screen (I got a window seat so I could see the sites, I figured it would make for some good photos and potentially put me more at ease if I could SEE what was actually going on.) and literally cover my face with my magazine. I was very careful to concentrate on my breathing and was able to calm myself down by the time we reached 10,000 feet. Once we stopped going STRAIGHT up and the plane evened out, I was pretty much fine, and even though the pilot kept apologizing for the "bumpy ride" (apparently we hit a cold air front, and we also had a strong headwind), the turbulence didn't bother me. I did, however, gasp audibly when the landing gear started coming down, and I anticipated being much more afraid when we landed then I actually was. Take-off was definitely the hardest part for me.

It also didn't help that I couldn't have my iPod turned on during take-off, and I was seated next to the epitome of what you DON'T want to be seated next to on a plane-- and obnoxious, loud military guy who spent the ENTIRE duration of the flight bragging to the woman seated on his other side (who was likely old enough to be his mother) about this, that or the other. And when he wasn't busy trying to pick her up (it worked by the way, they're going to dinner at Caraba's tomorrow) he was stepping on my foot, shoving his elbow into my (VERY limited) personal space, or WHISTLING. God, I don't think there's anything I hate more then people who whistle.

When I arrived (late!) at MCO, my darling Katie was waiting for me & we ran into each others arms like some cheesy romance novel. (I'm not exaggerating.) We then hit up Chic-Fil-A for dinner (I'm trying to ONLY go to resturants that we don't have up north. I REALLY want to go to a Sonic's.) and Super Wal-Mart so she could pick up some groceries, and we have spent the rest of the evening watching YouTube videos, giggling, and probably annoying the crap out of her boyfriend (who really doesn't seem to mind, AND laughs at my jokes, so I like him.).

Their apartment here is beautiful, high ceilings and a seperate shower AND bathtub in one bathroom. It's only a fraction of what Jay and I pay to live in a fairly bland apartment, and this makes me want to move even more. I wish the economy would get a little better, and I could be done with school so I could at least explore my options. I wouldn't want to live in Florida, personally (it's too hot, too hickville, and I would miss Spring and Fall!), but I know there is some place where our rent money would warrant us a nicer place. Plus, they have a cat here & I know Jay misses his Georgia cat. I would put up with her even though I am allerigic.

Tomorrow Katie and I go to Disney! It's my first time there & I have a big list of stuff I don't want to miss. I'm too excited to sleep!

Friday, March 13, 2009

A quick update

You find me now quite different then when I last left you. I had a blow up with my boyfriend a week or so ago that ended with me being single for (a heartwrenching) 26 hours. This eventually led to me begging for a second chance and seeking counseling as I realized that I really DO have a problem that I've been trying to ignore for so long and it's negatively affecting my life.

I basically knew that I had a crippling jealousy that reared its ugly head now and again, but what I didn't know was that it was ALWAYS apparent, and really putting a strain on our relationship.

So I'm signed up for counseling now, hopefully this is something I can fix about myself.

On a much lighter note, however, I will be leaving for Florida on Monday! I'll be staying with my best friend Katie who I haven't seen in over a year now and miss TERRIBLY. Lucky for me, she works at Disney World so guess who's getting in for FREE? That's right, me! I've never been to Disney World, never been on a "real" vacation (especially not by myself), and never been on a plane, so this is going to be a super exciting (and scary) time for me.

I'm terrified of heights and planes, so hopefully the flight will be quick (it's only about a 2 hour flight) and free of turbulence, and with a little luck I can manage to NOT lose my cool and scream and claw at the leg of the person sitting next to me. (see: how my mother behaved on HER first time on a plane.)

I'll be bringing my laptop with me, as I should have a bit of free time to fill while Katie is at school during the day (she's a teacher), but who knows if I'll be updating.

When I catch up with you again, I hope to be tan, relaxed, and smelling only of coconut sun screen!

<3