Thursday, December 31, 2009

New Years Eve

I'm one of those people who gets horribly depressed on New Years Eve. As a teenager, I used to lock myself in my room crying... sometimes contemplating suicide, sometimes burning myself. (I was a little bit of a sicko.)

This year I have promised my therapist I will not dwell on the things that happened or didn't happen within the last year.

As far as I am (immediately) concerned, (if I don't pick things apart too much) I'm healthy, I still have a job, a car, a roof over my head, and a great boyfriend.

Instead, I'm focusing on things that I welcome in the new year.

-Good health. I quit smoking about three weeks ago, through no real "choice" of my own, but I'm going to try to keep at it. When it comes down to it, I had been smoking for a long time (almost 7 years) and while it helps keep my weight down, it's really not good for me. The thing that keeps me going? I'm determined to spoil myself with the money I'm saving. $30 purse? Well... sure! I saved at least $50 this month by not smoking. Why not?
(Also, I joined a gym this month, although as of yet, I'd been too sick to go to it. I fully intend on going often, and hopefully decreasing my weight even more.)

-A better job. I applied for what sounds like an amazing job for me, and now I play the waiting game. It's a bit of a hike, but the money is good and it sounds like I'd operate completely of my own devices, which is ideal. I'm sick of work related drama and assholes I can't trust.

-Less debt. I paid off one credit card (the smallest balance, unfortunately, so it's really not that big of a deal.) and I intend to use ALL of my tax return to pay off at least two other "store" credit cards. After that, I'll have only two credit cards left, and hopefully it will be easier to handle only two payments.

-Less STUFF, but more "better" stuff. I'm cleaning the hell out of my closet/dresser and keeping only my favorite pieces. I'm replacing ratty, too-big or too-small clothing with things that fit, and I fully intend on getting some key wardrobe pieces tailored and mended. Getting rid of the millions of pairs of shoes I don't wear, and uncomfortable socks. Selling books. Getting rid of pointless household things. Less is more.

-Keep the apartment cleaner. Jay & I CANNOT get it together when it comes to this. I clean, he messes it up. He cleans, I mess it up. We really need to get in the habit of picking up after ourselves immediately, because it's getting ridiculous.

-Read more. No doubt the Kindle will help in this regard!

I'd also at least like to get to New York City again this year. It's been too long since my last trip.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

The Christmas Haul:

(a little late)

Considering my family set a $25 spending limit this year, I fared FAR better then I should have in the gift department.

All in all, I got...

-a gift card to the hair salon from my stepfather
-a gift card to the nail salon from my stepfather
-MakeUp Forever "Aqua Eyes" from my mother (it's supposed to be a really amazing, completely waterproof/smudgeproof black eyeliner. I'll tell you up front that it's CRAP.)
-Viva La Juicy perfume from my mother, to replace the old bottle that I had mysteriously lost
-A $25 gift card to Barnes & Noble from Jay, for a Quill and Ink set that I wanted. I was also able to get a coffee and a new notebook.
-Face lotion from Jay
-A variety of little lotions/body washes from Bath and Body Works from Jay

and, BEST of all...... a KINDLE! (from Jay)

The Kindle I have wanted forEVER, but considering it's price, I was resigned for having to save for it. I figured MAYBE in a year or so I would be able to afford it. I didn't even ask for it for Christmas.

It's just... amazing. Considering I'm trying my damnedest to be a minimalist, this was really the most perfect gift ever.

(This has actually lit quite a fire under me. I'll be taking my shoes to a used-clothing store, my old books to a used book store, and making a huge tax-deductible donation to Goodwill this weekend. I hope to have a much lighter bedroom/closet, and perhaps a slightly heavier wallet.)

All in all, Christmas was great. There was a bit of unpleasantness regarding a convenient store THIEF (whoops, I mean... cashier) who played a slight-of-hand game with a winning $100 lottery ticket... but I'll get more into that, later.

What did you get for Christmas?

Monday, December 21, 2009

On a less gross note--

Do any of you lovely ladies out there have size 10, 11 or 12 feet?

I have two (maybe three...) pairs of shoes in my closet that I no longer wear.

Two are boots, one is a pair of (giant) platform Mary Janes.

One pair of boots I have worn only once-- I love them, and used to have a similar pair in a size 10, but I could only find them again in a 12, and figured... no biggie, at least they're not too small!

Wrong. I wore them only once like I said, to work, and after only a 4 hour shift of (barely) moving around in them, my muscles were very angry. And continued to be so for about a week.

Lesson? Buying shoes two sizes too big hurts, albeit hurts differently then buying them two sizes too small.

Anyway, if enough people are interested, I figured I'd host a blog give-away. These shoes are all in super condition, and I'm probably never going to wear them again.

Let me know, and I'll scrounge up some pictures to show you what you're dealing with :)

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Not sexy.

(This entry is gross, and includes gross booger pictures. Consider yourself warned.)

I've spent the past few days since school has been out being decidedly NOT sexy.

Dirty hair, dirty yoga pants. Eating ice cream straight from the carton like a true American woman. Napping whenever possible.

None of this by choice, however. I've been miserable with a cold. Super sore throat, cloudy head, dry cough, froggy voice, & this weird kind of congestion I've never had before.

I would blow my nose a million times, but nothing would come up. I would cough and felt like I SHOULD be bringing something up, but I wasn't. You wouldn't know I was congested, except I was suddenly able to make this weird "purring" noise back in my sinuses, which is... well, not normal.

Today I got fed up. I was going to blow my nose... HARD.

What finally came out was so amazing I had to take a picture:
No, I didn't get a bottlecap out of my sinuses.. that was simply for reference.

That giant gross glob of mostly HARD snot came entirely out of my left nostril after one really hard blow. And now I'm happy to report that the LEFT side of my head feels pretty damn good, while my right still hurts.

(And the flash made the boogers look more bloody then they really were, so don't worry, I'm not nosebleed-city over here. )

Don't ask why I took a picture. I was partly proud of this weird thing my body had cooked up, and partly thought "If I don't take a picture no one will ever believe it was REALLY that big!"

Not that I go around bragging about my snot all the time... but... whatever.

I swear by the time I blog next I will be clean and healthy, and blog about far more interesting things then what comes out of my nose.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Halfway there...

Yesterday I took (and probably failed) my Biology II exam.

Today I took, and passed with an 85, my computer exam. I was really worried about failing the class, but the teacher gave me B-. Score!

Tonight I turn in my half-finished work (the math portion of my brain died two weeks ago and left me completely unable to complete any of my work) and struggle through my math final. Last I checked, I had a B+ in this class, but I'm not sure that grade is going to hold steady. As long as I pass, I don't really care!

Tomorrow I have no classes (hurray! I can clean!) and then Thursday I have my last Creative Writing class.

I'm not too worried about anything except my Biology grade. I just hope she passes me. Last I heard I had a 64 average :(

Saturday, December 12, 2009

...are you sure it's December?

The other morning, I woke up to snow.

By 5:30 that night, I was on my way to class during a huge thunderstorm with torrential rain.

I wanted to hear Christmas music, so I scanned the radio three times to find the channel that plays non-stop Christmas music.

It wasn't there.

... are you sure it's December?

Wednesday, December 9, 2009


Today marks the receipt of my first-ever rejection letter from a publishing company.

It's a weird feeling. Instead of being sad or angry (I was naturally disappointed, but just a little bit!) I was instead inspired. As soon as I got the rejection, I high-tailed it to my favorite website ever and submitted not one, not two, but four different pieces. It somehow managed to light a fire under my ass!

I even, in my sudden ambition, submitted a piece to The New Yorker.

I'll admit, I've only read The New Yorker maybe once, in a doctors waiting room or something. But a good friend of mine read Times Square, 2011 and said (and I quote, because I've committed it to memory!) "You should go on to write for The New Yorker or something, that was brilliantly written."

So I thought, hey, why not?

Rejection (and eventual acceptance!) is only a few copy-paste-clicks away!

Thursday, December 3, 2009

The shunning of Twilight

I tend to shun things that are immediately popular, and outrageously so.

Like, Harry Potter. I went for a good three years, I think, refusing to see the movie. Everyone told me I'd love it, but I stood my ground... until the third movie came out. I caught up on the first two, loved them, and ended up seeing the third one at a midnight show, dressed as Hermione.

Now... Twilight.

I am so skeptical of this one. Middle aged married women, drooling over teenage vampires? I mean... c'mon, what is this? It just sounds like a watered down romance novel that has the country addicted.

I decided that I would eventually read it, just to see what all the fuss was about.

But, after seeing this, I guess I no longer have to. :)

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Goals For Next Year:

Instead of jumping on the usual bandwagon of New Years Resolutions, I'm going to simply post what I would like to have accomplished by this time next year.

Hopefully, I will pass all my classes this semester (I've fallen behind in a few of them, but I hope I can still squeak by) & will only have to take 2 more classes before graduation.

  • Work full time. Due to circumstances at work, me having my ideal 8-4 or 9-5 Monday through Friday shift is finally becoming a possibility.
  • Minimize my stuff and keep my apartment CLEAN. This was near impossible when I was working two jobs and going to school full time, but I'm hoping it will be easier come January.
  • Pay off some more bills. I intend on using my entire tax return to pay off at least one or 2 smaller credit card balances, and from there, plus the extra money coming in from finally getting a decent work schedule, I should be able to spare more per week to square down the rest of my debts.
  • Save "fun" money! I want to be able to run away to NYC, Boston, or even Florida for the weekend. I'm tired of having to forgo $60 Regina Spektor concerts that are only 30 miles away.
  • ULTIMATE TRIP ALERT: My next Christmas, I want to be able to go to NYC, skate at Rockefeller Center, see The Nutcracker (or the Radio City Music Hall Christmas show), and do other cliche NYC things. I've been trying to do this for YEARS but it's never came to fruition.
  • Publish something. Anything! I'm working on a Chapbook, but if that doesn't work, self-publish, if only to have my work in one place (bound up all nicely) and backed up!
  • Clean most of my old stuff out of my mom's house. I shouldn't have TWO houses full of crap! And so much of that stuff is just unnecessary!

What's your one-year plan?