Sunday, September 19, 2010

Honestly?!

I'm angry, and whiny, and negative. You may want to skip this and await happier posts.


I'm getting really aggravated that people just convienently forget about me.

If every SINGLE year I ask you, "Are you going to do [this thing that used to be a really fun yearly event that I would drive 100 miles to go to] this year?" And for whatever reason, you haven't done it for the past two or three years...

WHY would you not think to invite me when you finally do it again?!

I know it sounds dramatic, but I have 406 facebook friends and probably only six who seem to give a shit about me. And that number is rapidly decreasing. I don't know if this is a by product of getting older, or if I've somehow driven people away, but the little kid inside me wants to stomp my foot and throw a tantrum.

I'm trying to literally pinpoint it..."Why would these people decide I'm not worth their time anymore?" But I just don't get it.

It's not just this, either. I'm continuously finding out that people are 'in the area' after the fact. I don't know about you readers, but whenever I go to NYC, I email my friend who lives in Brooklyn so that she knows. We discuss schedules (and they've never synced up, yet) and keep an OPEN DIALOGUE.

I think I'd even just appreciate something like, "Hey, we're going to be [in town], but we have so much to do that I don't think we'll be able to meet up."

But it's like I don't even exist to them anymore. I try to give them the benefit of the doubt, but it's starting to pile up and I'm starting to really resent them for it.

I tried to tactfully bring up how I felt once, and while they pretended to understand they then gossiped about me behind my back.

I can't wait til I'm in New York City. I need to make some new friends who may actually give a shit.

1 comment:

Little Mel said...

I'm going to the Big E and a club this saturday....you're welcome to come :-/