Friday, October 29, 2010

The newest member of 20 something bloggers...

My membership in 20 something bloggers was approved today! (And just in the nick of time. As the lovely guy training me at my new position had to point out today, I am ALMOST 30.)

It started with a simple sentence.

Him: I've known him for 20 years. We met as children.
Me: Oh, cool. I've known [co-worker] for...I can't remember. Maybe 15 years now. We met in high school.
Him: You were in high school 15 years ago?
Me: Yeah, no, [thinking] that can't be right.

(It was right)

It ended with me pulling out my birth certificate to prove to him that YES, I was really 26 years old. (No one ever believes me. I've been told that I look as young as 16--a fact I will probably be happy with 10 or 20 years from now, but it pisses me off now!)

Being NOT 16.

Needless to say, I got a little bummed out after our conversation. He is three years younger than me but way more successful. I couldn't help but feel a little developmentally behind, and it wasn't a good feeling. I never thought of myself as a "late bloomer" in any respect...I was the first one of my friends to do...practically everything.

I was also the first to get into credit card debt. YAY. (sarcasm.)

I cannot wait to dig myself out of this financial hole I'm in, (I've already raised my credit score from "very poor" to just "poor", so I'm on my way.) get into a good college and get my life under my control--completely.

I'm doing infinitely better than I was doing a year ago today, and even (more) better than I was doing about four years ago. (Unemployed, living at home, with a junk food habit, a nicotine addiction and an enabling--but well-meaning--mother!)

You just have to keep moving forward and looking forward. And one day I'll learn not to constantly compare myself with others.

I have done the absolute best I can with the hand I have been dealt, and that's all there is to it.


Little Mel said...

how can you have been in highschool 15 years ago? You were 11. You start highschool at 13/14. I was not even in highschool that long ago (almost)

Eponine said...

I started high school in 1998 which is 12, almost 13 years ago. When I said 15 it was only a number I pulled off the top of my head. The fact that it has almost been 15 years was the scary part.

Little Mel said...

haha...ya...I am kinda freaked out my 10 year Reunion in next June.

I went to see my friend perform in a play at her college and I noted one of the performers looked pretty hot. Then I realized he was probably between 19-21...The same age as my cousin who I'd known since birth.

I felt old.

This is why I also hang with people in their 30s and 40s.

Eponine said...

Omg, I know. When I worked at the portrait studio last Christmas, this really cute guy came in with his family to get their photos done.

I was kind of being overly friendly with him but trying not to be obvious.

After they left, I looked at their paperwork and noticed he was FIFTEEN. I felt SO gross after that. He was definitely over six feet tall and looked at least 20!

Little Mel said...

Ya, I have been hit on and then I find out the person is like 20 or 21. People get on me about it, but for my personal preference anyone under 24 is too young to date..ESPECIALLY 20 or 21.

btw what IS 20 something bloggers?