Thursday, February 17, 2011
And no sir, I don't like it.
I'll try to stay upbeat on the blog as much as possible. But things are not happy and shiny in Alison-land. I'm none too pleased. Under the microscope, (and while I can hear you all saying, "don't blame yourself" and "it's not your fault", please just...trust me on this one? I know it's not entirely my fault, but I do have to accept a rather large amount of responsibility.) I haven't been the kind of girlfriend that I thought I was. Not the kind I wanted to be, not the kind Jay deserved. I thought having dinner ready when he came home from work and buying good presents and loving him was enough, but there's so much that I have done wrong without even realizing it. I know I'm not perfect and neither is he, but there's more to it than all that. It's rough.
Kind of a mess right now, to tell you the truth.
But I promise I'll come back with a happier story soon. I'm sure there's one in my brain somewhere.